What really matters....

Having a text convo with my good friend and it hit me... Something that seems to be lost on so many people in the world.... With all the changes I have been going thru this last 18 months, what it is that really matters in this world...

I was married to a man who thought that what mattered were things... possessions... that was something we could never agree on. I have always known what matters and what doesn't.....

Now, that I am embarking on life again as a single woman, it appalls me that so many people... and men at that, have no clue about what really matters in this world. They play games, create drama and basically act like a bunch of spoiled over privileged children. They think that submission is something you can turn on and off at whim.... they think that any Domme or woman for that matter who is truly worth anything, will just put up with their shit. They think they are the only cock in town.... they think that we should all thank our lucky stars to have them.... Truth be told, they aren't... they have no value in this world or any world to any woman of quality... Because, lets be honest here, what woman... REAL WOMAN... wants some man who is full of shit... who can't stand behind their word... who thinks playing games and being less then a man is worth having... who wants a man who is so broken he has no idea how to even... BE A MAN!

I want a man, submissive or not who understands whats really important in life... One who understand that possessions and stuff is just that... STUFF

I want someone... ANYONE who gets that its the connections, the REAL CONNECTIONS you make with other people that matter most in this world... That someday, a day that none of us will know, we won't be here any longer to share the gift of ourselves with others.... Need it be the gift of being a real true friend, a lover, a confidant... or the gift of submission....

Lollapalooza 2009 Update

So Wayne and I went all 3 days to the city for this event. It was the first time I have ever done something of this magnitude and expected the worst. I was so happy when it turned out AWESOME!! In Fact we have both decided to go again next year! I took a lot of pictures that are up on my Flickr account www.flickr.com/photos/aprilknob/. Feel free to go and look and enjoy! My favorites of the weekend were Depeche Mode and Jane's Addiction. I also loved that Perry Farrell had his own stage set up that played club jams non stop all 3 days. I love that music and on Saturday, we stayed in one spot and listed to it thump a thumpa for hours. I know Wayne wasn't digging it but I love that he let me indulge.

Lollapalooza 2009

I am getting ready to leave for day one of my 3 day Lollapalooza adventure. If you are on Twitter, I will be live updating..follow me Aprilknob. I will also be doing some stories and pictures for the www.windycitizen.com under thier Lollapalooza 2009 blog. Cross your fingers for me that some of my stuff gets picked!

MIA no more!

So, as you can see, I have been MIA for some time. I plan on updating all of my travels and NKOTB experiences from the last year.... 11 concerts accross 7 states and countless meet and greets, after parties, bad hotel rooms, and friendship and bonding that took place. Stop back and I hope you enjoy what I share. I have A LOT of stories!!

Quest to meet the New Kids!

So, I have made a friend through my endless obsession with the NKOTB!! Mary is trying in vain to meet them and have a few minutes or "Real Time" with them. Hey, check out her blog and give her some love!!

campaigntomeetthenewkids.blogspot.com

On a personal note, I will be going to see NKOTB 3 times total so far myself..

10/4 with Beth 23rd row (Chicago)
10/24 by myself in a 5*VIP seat and getting to meet them back stage (Chicago)
11/10 with my new BFF Mindy in St. Louis 5*VIP again.

I can't wait for my Donnie Face Time!!